confused

lost

dumbfounded

yet it's cloudy & windy

11:53 AM
saturday

the previous days was very stressful. a lot of things went through my life in a bliss. was it becoz of me? not so. naiinis na ako sa mga frends ko, d ko alam kung 22ong mga kaibigan ko ba sila. d ko kc sila naiintindihan most of the time. especially wen it comes to me and hmmmPf.

at first d ko alam kung ano ung pinasOk ko. at lalo nang d ko alam if kakayanin ko. pero alam ko kung ano ung pinasOk, not to worry about it. But im the kind of person that wound eventually take chances kahit na ung possibilities would be so less and expect it to be worthwhile trying. im mostly optimistic. Before, i didnt thought na ganito mangyayari samen. Or na ganito magiging situation, ung hindi kami nagkakaintindihan most of the time. And worst of all, i didnt tHOught na ung frends nya will be der na mangugulo. I know na most of the time napapaewan ako. And now im starting to get scared, aYOko na kc ulit na mabreak ung heart ko.. kc natatakot ako na masaktan ulit. SOmetimes d ko alam ano gagawin ko, kc d naman tau naguusap. Worst he make his friends deal with it? why? well wala nmn use sken un kc wla akong pakialam kung ano man gawin ng mga friends nya. Kc ako wla akong pinapagawa sa mga frends ko. But sobrang nainfluenxahan ako sa mga kaibigan ko. D ko nga alam kung bat ako naging ganun ehh. Now tlgang nahihirapan na ako. I got what he did, and it dont matter now. Ang nagbobother lng saken is can we still make it after all of this? Napakagulo and i cant answer him right now. D ko alam if he can wait. This thing became big. I didnt expect the problem to become this big. I just dont want to make this decision so fast. I want to be sure. And i want to make it right this time.